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Those deep thoughts always seem to come at night. Just when you are in bed and ready to go to sleep, your brain goes into overdrive and it seems impossible to switch off. Thoughts racing and ideas spiralling, the kind that seem to always keep you awake. I have had this a lot recently, although…

Expectation.. An eleven letter word that carries much meaning at times. Like a pressing weight on your shoulders. It feels like something easy to control but lifting the weight off can be difficult.  The biggest disappointments for me often come from expectations. Rushing ahead with thoughts, letting my imagination spiral and being far away from…

The New Year always feels like a new chapter is about to begin. Like when you wake up on January 1st everything will change. That your life is going to be dramatically different, that you are going to be a new person and that you will have new routines and habits. I never believed in…

December… “The most wonderful time of the year.” A very tough month for many and so magical for others. People struggling to buy presents, feed their family to the extent of meeting societal norms, while others notice that one missing chair around the table a little more. Everyone has their own unique challenges and December…

It seems that even with the ups it was inevitable that there were going to be downs. With things starting to look up and some evident improvements, there were still many dark days and moments. When things are going well you think it will always be that way. The same way when things are bad…

Getting back on track felt like a full time job for me. It was something I was committed to giving everything to. I knew the dark place that I had been in and I was determined to not go back there. In the past I always saw things going in a straight line up, I…

I didn’t know what came next, I had no plan. Golf had become my identity over the years and I was deciding to take a step away from that. It felt unusual. Even with everything that had happened over the last year, golf still felt like my escape. But I finally realized what a bad…

I look back.. I wonder if I should have done things differently. This question goes through my mind daily. I guess I will never know. At the start of the year, all I could think about was getting away from Northern Ireland. It brought me so much sadness. I couldn’t walk into my house without…

It feels like that gut feeling is never wrong.  No matter how much you try to ignore it, it never leaves you. But I could never have imagined the extent of what was coming my way. My college coach sat me down and my mum was on the phone. That’s when the thoughts ran around…

It’s not an easy thing to do, to hold your hands up, feel vulnerable and say “I am struggling and I need help.” I’ve always thought it was easier to keep pushing on alone in silence, until I couldn’t do it anymore, I hit breaking point.   So many emotions and thoughts…The panic attacks, grief, anxiety,…